No excuses

As I was growing up, I was, and still are at times, the master of excuse making! If anything went wrong and I got the blame an excuse would come out straight away! Although when I was in the infants at primary school I used to just wander round the room and when asked what I was doing I wouldn't have an excuse.

Anyway, I don't have any excuses for not blogging for the past week, I just haven't been inspired. I can't even say I've been busy because I haven't! Well anyway, I was talking last night to someone about problems. My friend said that Jesus must have broad shoulders because He is able to bear the worlsd problems on them. That made me think. Maybe our problems seem big to us, but when put into the hands of the one who can do the impossible, they become extremely small. I don't know, just a thought.

Reflections

I've not long come back from a Salvation Army holiday at Butlins, Bognor Regis, and I am really really tired! I really don't know what I've done all week except band practice, going to band and songster festivals, and the late night sing a long. I got out of bed around 8 am and didn't go to bed until after midnight. This is highly unusual for me because I'm usually in bed around 10pm.

I don't think there was an official theme for the week, but one that kept coming up was evangelism. I think it's all too easy to get fired up for evangelism, but it's a lot more difficult to actually do it when you're back home in familiar surroundings with people you actually know. I don't really have this problem because my job involves being there for people in my community when they need me most, but I wonder how many of the people will actually do anything about what they've learnt at Butlins. During the Sunday meetings I felt encouraged that old people were going forward to pray at the front in response to God's promptings. Throughout my life I've always had the impression that old people either have their spiritual lives sorted out with God or just not bothered about Him. I'm glad that this has been shown as not always being the case.

Looking back

I was looking through my prayer diary last night at the first couple of entries in it. It made me smile because it said things like I'd upset Bram and things. This obviously made an impression on me if I felt the need to pray about it! I was also upset because I hadn't spoken to anyone in church and felt let down with myself because I hadn't been confident enough to make the first move! I don't have these problems anymore. I can always find some subject to talk to people about, but then I do see them in the week at work and things. As for the upsetting Bram thing, well, we've been married 18 months now so am past the honeymoon period! If I upset him then that's what life is about.

During the collection in church this morning the sound man played a song called "I'll not turn back" This song was appropriate for my life today, and really felt God speaking to me through. There's a line in it that says I'm called to live, to love, and save the lost. This was my feelings when I started my diary last December, and still are today.